I’ve have planned on writing this post for weeks, but every time I try to write about it, I stop and write about something else. I’m going to do a little stream of consciousness about this topic, because coherent thought isn’t really happening. Here’s the question –
How do you change to positive thinking while dealing with a serious health concern?
Right now … well, let’s just say that things haven’t been anywhere near easy recently. To be 100% honest – which is something I always abide by on here, although I do keep some things off of here to keep them to myself – I’m really seriously questioning every aspect of my life right now. I need a life makeover, you know? But it’s so easy to get all caught up in all the things I want to be different and then think so negatively about the life I do have.
I have a job. I have wonderful friends who support me so much. I have an incredible family who supports me and tries to help me in any way possible. I have amazing doctors and medical providers.
And yet, I still struggle with keeping my head above water.
I journal. I meditate. I do yoga. I cook. I clean (I really like cleaning it helps me feel better about life). I spend time with friends. I talk to my family. I pray. I write. I make videos and edit them. I try and, like I said, just keep my head above water. Some days and nights and weeks and months it feels like I’m constantly trying to keep my head up high. But I have to remind myself that there is a reason I’m going through this – even if I don’t like the reason – and that it won’t be like this forever.
Unfortunately, I can’t see into the future. This means that I can’t confirm that it won’t be like this forever or that it won’t get a lot worse. But I have to tell myself that things will be okay eventually, and I have to live my life like it will. And that is partially how I change to positive thinking.
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Kate Mitchell is a blogger, chronic illness patient, and advocate who helps people understand chronic illness and helps chronic illness patients live their best lives.
I hear you on this. You describe it so well. I've learned to relish in the good days. they are slim but when they happen I treat them like the best days ever. I'll be praying for you, for peace and for clarity.
Lately, I have had a hard time being positive and one thing that helps me is to think back to a time that was a real struggle for me and remind myself that I did indeed live through it and it helped me grow even though it sucked really bad. I hope you feel better soon and your circumstances turn around. 🙂
I admire your strength and writing so much! It's hard to know when/if things will get better, but staying in the moment and enjoying what you do have is so important!
You are such an inspiration, really. Keep swimming, I know you can do it. Even when you can't see the future you know for sure you'll feel better later knowing that you didn't give up.