You may or may not remember the whole doctor saga back in December. Well, almost 2 months after my original appointment, I met with a new rheumatologist yesterday. I honestly couldn’t tell you how the appointment went. There was a lot of crying (which was partially due to my elevated pain levels in the first place – I’m home from work today because I feel/felt so awful). My doctor seems to be incredibly nice, and I think, but need to confirm, that he will let me have my infusions at Vanderbilt in Nashville.
There was a period of about 10-15 minutes, though, when I was convinced that he did not think that I had arthritis and/or didn’t want to treat it. He talked only about improving my fibromyalgia treatment. Obviously I became very, very upset, especially since that was the experience I had with my first rheumatologist from Vanderbilt. My experience with her was why I haven’t had a rheumatologist in Nashville in 2 years.
I finally was able to stop the tears and put my concerns into words. When I brought up that my arthritis treatment was helping me and I wanted to stay on it, he asked me (very kindly), “Why would you think that I wanted you to stop it? I never said that.”
He’s right. He never explicitly spoke the words “I want you to stop your arthritis treatment.” But here are few of the many ways how he did say it:
“Clearly, suppressing your immune system isn’t doing much.” False. It is the only way I was able to finish college and have a job right now.
“It seems like the issue is fibromyalgia.” How else was I supposed to take this?
“Do you really think that the steroids and anti-inflammatory medications are helping?” Again, how else should I have taken this?
I would not have become nearly as upset had he started off the conversation with, “I don’t want to do anything to the arthritis treatment. But I think I can help your current pain by focusing on fibromyalgia.” Or even if he said, “Let’s not stop any of your medications. Maybe we can add another one for fibromyalgia.” Either of these or a variation of it would have made me feel extremely different.
This miscommunication issue can apply to anyone, in any profession, at any time. I’m sure that I have been a perpetrator of it at some point with my students, despite how much I try. Maybe it’s the English major in me, since I spent 4 years writing papers analyzing what authors said and what they said by not saying something. But I feel like it’s important for everyone to practice saying exactly what they mean, and not just half of what they mean.
Anyone else feel like what you don’t say can mean just as much as what you do say, or do I really put too much emphasis on that?
it is very tough in the medical profession…communication can make or break relationships, information, etc. It can be an art-form to word things properly, and no matter how hard you try, they still don't come across quite how you meant it. I am sure it goes for other professions as well.
Plus I feel that they also loose the ability to remember that they are treating a human being with feelings… They become desensitized to it… I'm sorry that you had to go through that.
I'm sorry this happened, and *fingers crossed* that you can receive your transfusions in Nashville. *Hugs*
I feel the EXACT same way- I'm definitely an over-analyzer, so what people don't say speaks volumes to me sometimes! I hope your new doctor works out better than your last one!